Sawdust Tracks

John Dentino: Post-Fibonaccis

Musica del Payaso Malvado

Track list and music here

I wrote these pieces between the years 1990 and 2003.

Why the clown, circus, and carnival motifs? Well, I was convinced in the early 90s that the carnival was the central metaphor for psychological transformation and a dream state existing on the outskirts of normally accepted society. The evil clown, the carnival (derived from old Italian “carnelevare,” which means “to remove the meat” or “flesh farewell” for Lent), and the circus subculture seemed like secrets whose covers hadn’t been lifted. I was also in therapy with a Jungian who told me that my addictions were a search for wholeness. She advised that it would be good to “get more” of whatever it was that I was trying to get through my addictions. OK. More Jim Beam, more marijuana, and more hookers! Today, when someone asks me to give them a reference for a Jungian therapist, I ask them, “Why a Jungian? Don’t you want to actually get better?”

Track list can be found here.
— J.D. (1/27/06)